Update

Hey, It's 3 a.m. and am wanting to go to bed soon. It probably won't happen, as I woke up around 1 p.m. today (Monday) and 1 p.m. yesterday (Sunday). I missed my swimming practice, because I was too tired to get up, comatosed, might be a good word choice. Too comatosed to get out of bed. Watched the basketball game, and saw the Warriors lose a close one. too bad.
the way I feel about competition is always one sided.

Either I am happy to win and don't care about losing or am very upset about losing and don't care if I win, depending on the competition. They produce the same. a desire to win, but one gets a positive and one only has a negative.

poker for me is mainly about the losing. when you win, it usually involves luck, ok, for me (maybe that's the problem, I don't win with skill, which is why winning doesn't feel good, but lately I hate losing at poker, because it keeps happening all the time.

I'm enjoying hanging out with my housemates, mainly watching basketball this last month. we are all leaving the house and I am moving back to California. I know a lot of people looking for work here. and I probably, hopefully can get work here, but it just makes sense to head back to California, take some courses and get a job back there.

When I left for DC, it was mainly a career move and when I move back to California, it is also mainly a career move. It is time I got a regular job. although I'll miss the DC intellectuals quite a bit. I could work here, but as long as I am taking grad classes, it's best I move back there. I can move here, if I get a cushy job here. after I go threw grad school again or get into a field where no grad school is required. it's time for me to hit the head. more to come later. including a wrap up to the Series-When Things Come Out the Wrong Way.
-GCNOF